Friday, 2 October 2015

Happy Birthday, You Beautiful Ball of Anger, You!

As of today, I have been alive on planet earth for 34 years and I think I was asleep for most of it :). I don't know why this birthday has a special significance for me but I feel this overwhelming desire to do a life review. I have spent the last few days leading up to it reflecting on where I have been and where I really want to be. I have always had something to desire or move towards in my life and as I think about what is missing, it has nothing to do with objects or  destinations and everything to do with being ok with exactly where I am.

Before I go on, I feel I need to share my experience of pre-Christmas rage. It was a few years ago, but I feel it provides one of the best examples. It was just a few days before Christmas and there I was kicking a large box in front of the Sears loading dock. It was my son's toy kitchen from his grandma. This was now my third attempt to pick it up and bring it back home after 2 failed attempts earlier that week. Today, I asked my sister to drive me with her Jeep to pick it as I was sure it would fit. After receiving it from the man working the best he could with Christmas panic in full swing, I carried it down the stairs, opened the back door of the vehicle that was finally going to provide me with what I needed. After several minutes of trying to maneuver the box and eventually unpacking the box, it was clear to me that it was not going to fit. In that moment it was like something deep within took over and unleashed its super human strength from my small frame onto that unsuspecting cardboard box. I kicked and punched and hurled that cube to the ground while yelling, " f**k You!" Yup, at the pick- up post at a busy department store pre-christmas. In that moment, it was only me, the box and my rage. When the beating came to an end, I  dusted myself off, carried it back to the Sears employee leaving the toy kitchen on the pavement and indicated I would be back later that day. I got into my sisters jeep....smiled, loved myself anyway and moved on. I remember laughing hysterically  and feeling like the most liberated version of me that I had experienced in a long time. I now reflect on that moment and wonder how long that rage was in me and how it may have affected me on a energetic, cellular and social level. With it finally free, I refused to make myself feel bad about it. After all, no one was injured and I felt like a new woman.

It is not that I am proud of my public act of violence, but in that momement in my life, I accepted it. Lately, I have been on this journey towards opening my heart and making love the focus of my life. I believe that by doing so, I have been neglecting parts of myself that need to be released. So watch out world, this could get messy :)  The point is, the emotions we hold in will come out anyway in some form or another (inauthenticity, suppressed anger in the form of body tension and stress, depression and anxiety).

I am interested in loving what arrises, even if that means unwanted emotion. I want simplicity and the ability to appreciate where I am without thinking about where I am going. I believe we all have parts of us that we choose not to acknowledge- we chastise them as if they were an unwanted visitor and fail to acknowledge that they have actually been living in the basement our entire lives. For me, that basement dweller is anger.  I somehow believe that by sending the anger into its hiding place, no one will know about its existence, including me. I know this is true, because every time "Angry Stacey" shows herself, I am shocked and taken by my lack of control over the situation. My old pattern has been to shame myself after yelling at my children or becoming short with my mother. To allow guilt to fuel my engine of self loathing and "woe is me".

And so marks a year of shifts. I recognize that my next breath is never a guarentee, never mind my next birthday. I believe our work on this planet is to learn from what arrises within us. To allow its emergence so we can send it love and when it has played it's course, set it free. I believe that as we set it free from out own experience we release it from the collective experience. This is the true embodiment of love. Love where you are, what you are regardless of your expectations. In this place we become more tolerant of the world and our hearts will open to the darkness as well as the light. May you be blessed, may you be well and may your be loved. Love the whole you, not just the parts of that satisfy your immediate needs. Would you only love the parts of a child that looked and acted perfect. No, we love them unconditionally. We love them messy and through tantrums. We love them soiled and even when they are so exhausted, they no longer resemble human form. In fact we recognize their need for love during these times as pivotal to their ability to thrive. So why would we be any different?

Love what is my friends and set yourself free. Just keep the anger moving towards inanimate objects the best you can ;)

Many blessings,


Sunday, 26 April 2015

Vibrational Eating

Vibrational Eating

Can we eat Vibration?
Ever since I can remember, I have been intrigued with the subtle world. I have been mystified by how we can change our experience simply by getting rid of labels from our past and choosing to feel what we are going through with a new vibe...experience it with a new perspective...and see it through a clean lens. You know the moment when you realize that everything you have experienced in your life was not only necessary but part of a greater plan. Well, that is exactly where I sit now.

To keep it short, for a huge part of my life I was lost behind the veil of an illusion. It was a place that brought great suffering in regards to my relationship with food and therefore, my relationship with life in general. Over the last few years I have done some pretty enduring self healing work that I am absolutely grateful for and know I was meant to do...and am still doing. I am also grateful for those moments when I hated my body...when I desperately wanted the great scientists of the world to come up with a way that we could sustain ourselves without food....when I actually contemplated living off apples and protein shakes. It was because of these years of struggle that I found myself looking for peace wherever I could and what ultimately led me to my Yoga Mat. After developing some space between my irrational mind and truth (because that is exactly what the practice aims to teach) I had this intense urge to share what I had use my experience to assist others who may be feeling pieces of what I had felt. I started with yoga and as I gained momentum in healing my relationship with food first through love (which I know sounds horribly corny but there are no other words to explain what set the wheels of healing in motion) and then through nutrition.

It is only when one knows they can no longer survive within the suffocation of fear that they surrender (fall to their knees type of surrender). This first happened to me during the first year as a new mom. It was during this time that I felt the greatest internal struggle. As much as I tried, I was unable to experience the natural ability to nurture new life when I didn't know how to nurture my own. They say that your children are your greatest teachers, and for me that was painfully true. When the fight was just more than I could bare, I released the reins so to speak and something inside me was a deep knowing that if I was to continue on, I would die. This knowing wasn't so much of an actual physical death, but the highest version of myself would never experience this life and my family and those I loved deeply would never experience her or her love. This knowing was the equivalent of death. This moment is where I shifted from barely living to slowly peeling the layers away so I could feel more and more life within me make its way into my experience. And it started with the way I took care of my physical body and not only what I fed it but how.

So going back to where I began this message....Can we Eat Vibration?  Absolutley! The food we eat is a gift, it is how we sustain life and to me it is a great teacher.  When I went through my shift from deprivation to love it was like I was taken back in time. There was a time when our food was made not by big food industry but by mother nature herself.  Much of our food today is just dressed up calories and additives made to look like food. They give us fuel to a certain extent but the nurturing in regards to vitamins and minerals (the essence of the earth) are lacking, therefore its vibration is also lacking. These non-foods advertise that they are food but they do not contain the same vitality that actual food does. So many people are confused about what to eat these days, just as I was when I started this journey. I had to relearn that just because something was 100 calories and could fit into the size of a large bowl didn't mean it was healthy and that just because something had more than 3 grams of fat didn't make it terrifying. I would like to share with you a tool that allowed me to use my own intuition and put down the latest diet books to find out exactly what my body needed.

I would like to invite you on a journey into your food's vibration.

To begin, find a piece of fruit and then find something in a package (cereal, chips, crackers etc.)

Hold the first item in your hands, and take in the vibrant colors, feel the texture and smell its aroma. Now close your eyes and visualize it's very beginning. Regardless of what you are holding, it most likely began as a seed...plant....fruit etc. If you are unable to imagine it as a plant because it's origin as life is unrecognizable the exercise is over. Visualize the roots of the plant spreading as they search for water to nurture this new life. Watch as the the fruit begins to grow and mature, changing in size and colour until it is almost ready to free itself and surrender from the plant (knowing that it has taken in all the life force energy it is able to). Now imagine what it would look like for this particular food to be picked from the tree (is it a orchard, a small family farm or something else?). Visualize its journey from the plant to place in which you first saw it (the colourful produce section of the grocery store, farmers market or superstore isle). What is added to it? How was it changed? Do you feel the vibration of that which you hold in your hands? Do you feel that it contains life? Can you sense the inner knowing that this food has the opportunity to provide you with the very same vibration that it is emanating?

Once you have practiced this with both items in front of you. Close your eyes once again and shift your attention from one to the other and see if you can FEEL the difference. Which one would you choose to nourish your life?

If this seems like a lot of work just to choose a snack, you are right. It will be work in the beginning, but with practice it will be like second nature. Use this when you are craving something and just can't put your finger on it. It is usually because your body is looking for something it needs, a depletion of a specific vitamin etc. This exercise is also a great way to show gratitude for the effort that it takes to produce food for us. We may start to rethinking how much we waste and take for granted.

Much love, light and wellness,


Monday, 30 March 2015

Is a SPRING CLEANSE right for you?


Ultimately, to release the toxic load that we are subjected to on a daily basis. We live in an abundant and fast paced world that provides us with endless opportunities and through these opportunities it is often difficult be aware of and avoid our exposure to the toxins we breath in, absorb through our skin, eat and think. It is imperative in today’s world to counter this process by taking in beneficial antioxidants from our food choices and living as clean of a lifestyle as we can through our cleaning products, work place hazards. The intention is to make digestion so efficient that there is extra digestive fuel left over to clear away toxins accumulating in the body via the bloodstream. Thereby, increasing your energy and vitality, allowing you to make the choices that support your decision to live a radiant life.

A FEW of the Many Benefits









It is important to choose a time that allows for some flexibility in your schedule. This is an invaluable time for reflection and slowing down. The body will have less fuel for physical movement as it focuses on clearing out the excess in regards to chemical load. Science has now proven what the great spiritual teachers have been portraying for years. The mind and body are deeply integrated to the point that they are one system. Therefore, it is to our advantage to use the cleansing period to create space within and pay attention to our thoughts and emotions as if an outsider looking in. Our thoughts are carried by neurotransmitters to the cells throughout our being which have systemic effects including our immunity, metabolism and potential for healing and or disease. If we are busy running from one stressful situation to the next we may just miss out on a potentially transformational time.

Who is it not suitable for?

Those who are pregnant or currently breastfeeding, those who are acutely ill or dealing with a chronic debilitating illness. In these instances the body requires individualized care.  If you are interested in how holistic nutrition can help, I would be happy to book you an individualized one on one assessment at my home office. 

For more information and to sign up for The 30 Day SPRING CLEANSE AND RENEW WELLNESS PROGRAM starting APRIL 27th,2015 visit my webpage Deadline to register is APRIL 12th. 

Tuesday, 9 September 2014

Spiritual Alignment

With a new session in the near future I thought it would be helpful to address some of the benefits we can anticipate through our Yoga practice. There seems to be this cliche' about mind, body, spirit that is often used to describe wholesome wellbeing. I refer to it as cliche' because it is often used without a clear understanding of what it truly means. We are great at reasoning how certain actions benefit our bodies and are getting better at doing this for our minds as well. There seems to be a gap however in regards to later of the the 3, our spirits. It is known, that when all of the parts of who we are are in alignment and nourished we are healthy and vibrant. In order to truly nourish our spirits we have to be able to feel and experience our truest self.

Eating nourishing foods and taking care of our physical body will definitely aid in our spiritual alignment but it is not a guarantee. The true work is in the act of self acceptance, compassion and letting go. So how does this apply to our Yoga practice? We know that through the practice, our bodies have the opportunity to align as we physically move them in ways that open and strengthen areas that need opening and strengthening. We discover that as our body movements coincide with breath, we are able to quiet the incessant noise of mind chatter and strengthen the ability to become focused. Therefore, it is evidenced that our minds and bodies are benefiting from the practice of yoga each time we come to our mats. Using words to explain how our practice may also align our spiritual aspect may be a futile effort but I am up for the challenge.

“People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within” (Elizabeth Kobler Ross ).

Allowing this light to shine means that we have to ensure that our energetic blockages that smoother our light are undone. What sets a true yoga practice apart from "Indian Calisthenics" is the ability to come face to face with these blockages, our darkness and sit with it for long enough that we realize its' delusion. When we realize that we are at its truest form compassion and pure light, we no longer have judgement, only acceptance for what is. We begin on our mat, with the experience we are faced with at that moment; perhaps our body's alignment or what our mind may be fixated about in regards to our past or future and witness the truth of our Samskara (habitual mind patterns that are now imprinted in our subconscious and act as obstacles for spiritual alignment). Our practice has the potential to undo these blockages as we witness them on the mat and eventually in our day to day interactions. 

My wish is that your practice becomes a tool for holistic alignment, allowing you to experience your radiance and embrace this beautiful gift of life.


Wednesday, 23 July 2014

Baby Announcement

We Have Big news to share!
First of all, a huge thank you to all the students who participated in classes over winter/spring and supported me on this journey of sharing my love for Yoga while my body nourished new life. Your understanding and love allowed the experience to be more than I could have imagined. 
Nixon Alexander Huard was born on July 16th at 8:46 pm, weighing 7lbs 14 oz and 21 inches.

During my pregnancy a wise woman told me that this baby would teach me about what it is that I am passionate about. The love and support I have received from the Yoga community in Warman over the last 9 months has been an amazing journey in itself. Reminding me everyday that I practiced with you my passion for teaching. As baby took up more and more of my body I became more and more taken by your ability to move and breath with openness and sincerity. Thank you for your practice. Thank you for your kindness. 

Sending love and laughter to you this summer!

Hope to see you in the fall!

“When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, FAITH is knowing one of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly” ~Patrick Overton

Sunday, 22 June 2014

Feed Something Deeper

Feed Something Deeper


If you are anything like me when it comes to fully showing up in my life, I totally freak out. It took me some time to recognize this pattern, like 30 years. I am finally realizing the pattern of feeling something great in the horizon and closing the door abruptly. Fear, self doubt, lack of self-confidence are the door closers and I would like to share with you how they can be released. It is through letting go that you are able to let in and feel the power with in you expand. As you shed that which does not serve what remains is a powerful force. A force that has been there the whole time, that only you have the power to uncover. It is time to stop looking outside for ways to build up what you already have within. Break away from old patterns and find a new way home. What self limiting beliefs can you let go of today? 

Saturday, 25 January 2014


How do we perceive ourselves in this world? Sometimes we need to be pulled out of our day to day experience to get a clearer view.

The ego self makes us feel like our needs are of utter importance that we are huge in the grand scheme of life. But put into perspective we are like a spec of dust in relation to this vast universe. Place yourself in the middle of the ocean….how big do you feel? Place yourself in line at Tim Horton’s, the needs change, the perspective changes. When we see ourselves as a piece of the greatness rather than the greatness we can enter into what we call the flow. We move with the current of the universe rather than against it and all that is really important is at our finger tips. And this is why I love spending time in nature, or in meditation; it puts my ego self in its place and the replacement of ego driven insanity is ease and acceptance for where I stand, for what I offer, what I think I need. Feel yourself for who you really are energetically; you hold a piece within you that is connected to all that is. You are that ocean, that tree, the child in tears from pain, the father in tears for joy. It really doesn’t get much bigger than that! J